Taking It Off Finale – Month 6

Taking It Off Finale – Month 6

Week 26

Here we are, the first week of 2020. And I DID IT!!! I hit my goal of 30 + a few extra pounds the first week of December!! I averaged 1.8 pound per week. My first few weeks were all over the place. I would gain 2 pounds one week and then lose 4 the next week, but eventually it evened out.

What’s my secret? Wait for it; I ate less!! You’re welcome!! Who knew?? I am going to reveal this new secret in a book and make millions of dollars.

My big ah, ha moment was that losing weight is one big mind game. You can tell yourself that you want to lose weight, but until your mind is 100% in the game, I don’t think you can be successful?

It also takes awhile for your mind to let you see that you’re changing. The first time I was like; holy shit, you’re doing it! Was when I saw this picture below that my friend took of me on one of our outings. I usually avoid full body shots, because they have made me feel fat and bad about myself. This was the third week of October, I was down 24 ish pounds at the time. And obviously my body was changing, but my mind hadn’t caught up yet until I saw this pic.

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By mid November I was down almost 30 pounds and ready for my inspiration outfit. To recap, I wanted to wear a sequin skirt and top that had been hanging in my closet for three years.

Well it turns out the skirt ended up being too big for me!!! So I never got to wear it, but I am fine with that!

Here I was feeling my best self the night of the Mariah Carey Christmas concert. Ok, I may also have been feeling a few lemon drop martinis?

Since your mind can play games with you, I think taking pictures are a great way to gauge how you’re doing, because the camera doesn’t lie, but filters do! But that’s cheating.

It can be hard to stay motivated, especially when your mind is feeding you negative messages, you need to find ways to shut that shit down. Remember when I was having a bad week and went to the grocery store and walked around holding a ten pound bag of potatoes? That may have sounded silly, but it helped re-set my mind.

I was feeling like I wasn’t getting anywhere, that it was taking too long; I wasn’t seeing results, I was feeling discouraged because I was only down ten pounds. Physically walking around holding ten pounds of potatoes showed me how heavy that is and how much I had accomplished.

The point here is that I had to find concrete visible or tactile ways to prove to myself that I was succeeding, because there were times that my mind was trying to sabotage me. Why? Maybe because change is harder than the status quo??

I did base myself on Weight Watchers knowing it wasn’t a diet, these were new habits that I needed to adopt for life.

I had to create new habits and train my mind to think differently. I started questioning myself and still do every day; I ask myself why I am eating? Am I hungry? Or am I bored or upset?

And the questions don’t stop there, when I am eating I take breaks and ask myself if I am still hungry? I’ve found that 1/3 of my meal is enough. So I pack it up and eat some of it or all of it later.

I also realized that I need something sweet everyday. In the past I would have denied myself and then lost it and pigged out. On Weight Watchers as long as you allow points for your treats you can eat whatever you want, in moderation of course.

So if I want a cookie, I get a cookie! But again I talk to myself. I don’t eat the whole thing, well sometimes I do, but most times I figure out that  half or a few bites are enough to satisfy me. I have shared my tricks with a few people who have said that they could never just eat half a cookie. Yes you can!! I don’t give the rest away, I earned that damn cookie, it’s mine! I save it for later. So instead of having two, or three cookies at 6 points each I have one, but I make it last.

That’s been my approach, but everyone needs to find their own tricks.

Personally, I believe that for me to succeed I need to be mindful of why I’m eating, what I’m eating and how much I’m eating.

I’ve proven to myself that I am a great loser, but I have yet to prove that I’m a great maintainer. If I was, it would be one and done, but sadly it doesn’t work that way. I am sure everyone reading this has also proven that they can lose, the losing part is easier than the keeping it off part.

I also don’t think we’re always realistic when we set out to lose weight. We imagine or fantasize about how life will be different or better if we’re 30 pounds lighter. First of all, you’re the same person, there is just a little less of you. Losing weight won’t make you more confident or happier. Can it help you feel better? Yes, but you’re the same person with the same issues you had before.

So you need to figure your shit out. If you’re an emotional eater, like me, and you do manage to lose weight, but you haven’t found other ways to deal with your emotions, you’re eventually going to gain the weight back.

That’s my thing, I was using food to cope with feelings. If I want to maintain I’ll need to check myself regularly to make certain I don’t fall back into old habits.

Losing weight is exciting. Yes it’s hard, but there is a payoff when you step on that scale every week and you’ve had a good week, you get a rush and a sense of accomplishment. You don’t have that feeling when you’re maintaining. If you stay the same, you’re relived, but if you’ve gained then you have failed.

That’s been my internal dialogue in the past, I tend to be an all or nothing type of girl and I can be hard on myself. If I’m not winning then I must be losing. I am trying to come up with a new, kinder and gentler inner dialogue. I’m currently figuring that out.

Take a look at the pics below, the one on the left was last winter and the one on the right was taken a few days ago. Side note, it’s been exactly one month since my nose surgery, I had a small cancerous thing removed off the bridge of my nose. It’s still a little red, but wow, it’s healing well! I was worried. I am no nutritionist, but I assume that healthy eating and lots of water have helped my body heal itself?

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I’m proud to report that I survived the holidays without gaining weight! And that included moving in with my mom while I waited for my furniture to arrive from the US. I did have to tell her to stop buying cheesies!!

I do want to lose a bit more weight, but 30 seemed more mentally manageable, so that was my initial goal. Be realistic and break it up if your goal number is intimidating, go for 10 at a time.

I hope this series has helped motivate you a little? Just so you know, I am a middle aged woman who has gone up and down like most of you reading. I don’t have any special weight loss talent or secret; so if I can do it you can do it too…again! Because like me, I’m sure you’ve been there, done that and have the t-shirt.

We’re all flawed and do our best to survive, so  if you aren’t ready to make big changes, that’s ok too. Start small, start drinking more water. Before you chow down on something you know probably isn’t the best choice, down a big glass of water, it will take up some of the available room in your tummy and make you feel full faster.

And finally, can we stop judging each other? You know what I am talking about; she’s too thin, she’s too fat, she thinks she’s better than everyone else…. No, she’s just doing the best she can with the challenges she’s dealing with that you know nothing about.

My goal for myself for 2020 is to use all the tools and tricks that I’ve picked up in the past 6 months to stay on track and to be kinder to myself. I will do my best, sometimes my best will be awesome and other times I’m certain that the best that I can muster will be far from perfect. I need to remind myself that that doesn’t mean that I am failing.

Bonne chance!

muah,

Liette

The incredible shrinking cheeks!

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Taking It Off, Month 4!!!

Taking it off, month 4!!

Week 13

When you start a weight loss or a health journey, I think you just want to fast forward to month 4; I know I did because it takes awhile to see results and who are we kidding, patience is not one of my most shining virtues. But if you stick with it, each week’s small loss do start to add up.

I have one week left before we start setting up for our biggest show of the year. I don’t think people really know what I do exactly, that includes my family; most think I fly around and do fancy things.

I do trade shows for a large gaming company. The biggest gaming show in the world happens every fall in Las Vegas. On Thursday, I will be moving to the strip for 10 days.

Our booth is 25,000sq ft, we set up close to 400 slot machines. It will take a staff of 30 of our employees and an additional 20 support staff, five days to get it all done.

Our booth will have a bar, a lounge and a second level VIP area. We have 11 meeting rooms, in our booth and 7 other various, demo, storage and server rooms.

We send 600+ people to this show; we host a big reception in our booth and sales training the day before the show opens. We rent out the Omnia Nightclub in Caesar’s for our customer party on day 1 of the show. My team and I coordinate all of that, along with registering all our staff and coordinating hotel rooms.

So it’s a lot and it’s a bit stressful. For set up, our first few days will be 10 hours days easily. The guys bring in donuts for breakfast, lunch is pizza, chips and candy. And when the show starts, we are in the booth all day and then go out to eat dinner, usually late at night.

One of the good things is that we don’t stop; one year we all had Fitbits and if you hadn’t hit 11,000 steps before noon, you were a slacker! We don’t do the Fitbits anymore because “someone” was too “competitive”…whatever! Lol

I have a full week before we start so I need to load up on fruits, vegetables and vitamines. I usually get sick after this show, because it’s so easy to get run down.  But not this year!!!

Week 14

What a week!!! I was on the strip all week for our big show. And, just as I suspected, there were lots of sugary snacks!!!

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I managed to navigate without gaining a single pound this week! I also walked my butt off and, truth, be told; I was hoping to lose weight this week, but I am more than happy with staying flat.

I have to say, traveling when you feel good and comfortable in your skin is so much easier! I hate that feeling of not liking anything in your suitcase! We had a group dinner on Wednesday night and I must say, I felt sassy and confident!!

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I am so close to my goal!! Just to recap, my goal is 30 pounds. I started my weight loss journey at the end of June; it’s currently, Oct 19, so it may seem like the pounds are just flying off, but it’s been almost 4 months!!

This coming week, I will be on vacation in Moncton. Ahhh Moncton, you have so many of my favorite yummy comfort foods! My goal is going to be to maintain and not gain any weight!! That being said, life is short! So if I indulge a bit too much one day, the plan is to adjust the following days! Sounds easy enough right?

In case you’re curious to what’s on my Moncton menu: lobster, mussels, fish and chips, a râpé (Acadian dish of potatoes and pork fried in lard)…oh and I may need a turkey dinner since I missed Canadian Thanksgiving? Ok, that sounds like a lot…ok, I may be in trouble???

Week 15

I survived my “vacation” to Moncton without gaining weight!! I actually lost a pound.

It’s funny how most of our social interactions are centered around food. When dining out I stayed away from the bread they put on your table and I drank lots and lots of water. I also, pretty much only ate half or a bit less than half of everything on my plate. I made sure I was satisfied without being stuffed.

I felt that I needed a change, so I decided to go pink! See below. Just kidding, it was Halloween, but doesn’t this look like my real hair??? I do feel like I am changing and it feels good.

My skinny jeans are starting to sag in the butt, I may need to pick up a new pair soon? 😁

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Week 16

I flew back from the East Coast to Las Vegas for a few days before I had to fly to Calgary for a small work event. This has been a really busy few months. I rarely complain about my travel schedule, but I am pretty much exhausted.

I am looking forward to this upcoming long weekend, the weather is finally cooler in Vegas so I hope to get some hiking in.

I am in Calgary for a short conference, we just had our group dinner. I had a petite filet mignon that was dripping in butter and I feel gross! It’s 10:40pm and I am just laying on my bed feeling full! It’s really the first time since June that I feel this full and yucky!!

We have another customer dinner tomorrow night, my goal will be to fill up on vegetables and maybe skip meat? I am learning that it’s all about balance. I think I need a new rule though, no more big meals after 7:30 at night, it’s not worth feeling this yucky!!

Sooo I stayed flat this week which is fine. What I’ve learned from weight watchers and have been doing often is that if I splurge one day, the following day I try to eat free point meals.

Their program considers all fruits and vegetables as zero points, because who are we kidding, bananas aren’t to blame for our fat asses. The exception is corn, potatoes and avocados. Also chicken and eggs are now zero points. So the day after I have treated myself, I make myself a big fluffy veggie omelette, so zero points.

I have one month before I pack up my life and move back to Canada, so month 5 should be busy!

muah!

Liette

 

 

Taking It Off! Month 3

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Week 9

Week 8 was a bit of a struggle mentally, but I am starting week 9 with more mental calmness.

Reaching out to my little brother for encouragement and support may not have been the best idea?  Here is the pic I sent him and our text exchange.

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Note to self, don’t look to others for comfort and support…oh and brothers are annoying!! Lol. We like to tease each other. He is tall and lanky, I am not!! I will plot my revenge!!

Not that his comments got to me, but I’ve decided to smile in my monthly selfies moving forward.

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Week 9 pic, smiling and have some makeup on, not because my brother said I looked old!!

I haven’t shared anything to date about what I have been eating. My first month or so I was diligently counting my points. As the weeks went bye, I felt like I knew what I could eat without being so obsessed with tracking.

For the last three weeks, I’ve tried to listen to my body and the pounds seem to be falling off nicely. I am not obsessing over food and I am trying to really be mindful of my emotions and not using food to sooth me.

Last night I ate out with a friend, I ordered pasta and it was delish!! I ate maybe 1/4 of what was on my plate. I put my fork down and asked myself if I was satisfied? Not out loud, that would be weird! Turns out I was satisfied and I wasn’t hungry anymore, so I boxed it up and brought it home.

I am realizing that I don’t have to end each meal or snack feeling super full…who knew?!

Will I go back to counting my points? Maybe? But this is working for me now.

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This is the snack that I have pretty much every night. Two graham crackers, some chocolate chipits and a few marshmallows. I pop them in the toaster over and voilà!! Just enough sweetness; I don’t deprive myself of anything.

Week 9’s weigh in is an impressive 0.6 pounds! But, that’s ok, because I figured out why I was so cranky and off last week; oh the joys of being a woman! I am pretty sure I am retaining a good 7 pounds of water!! Lol, ok, maybe 2??

I am a bit worried about next week, I’ll be out of town for work, eating in restaurants, for a full week. I will do my best to make good choice, let’s see how I make out.

Week 10

I left Vegas on Friday, it’s now Sunday night and not being able to follow my new eating routine is getting me down. Plus I am feeling super stressed about my upcoming event, I am fighting really hard to not stress eat.

Oh, I should add that our first night here we ended up at a pub for dinner where everything on the menu was super fatty. My coworkers devoured warm pretzels with cheese sauce. I resisted, I had 3 wings, a small slice of pizza and like 10 glasses of water!!

It’s 9:30pm, Monday night, and I just finished dinner, ugh!!! Being on the road is hard!! I don’t like eating dinner that late.

It’s Friday and I just got back from Arkansas, I’ll get weighed tomorrow morning and to be honest, I have no clue what the hell the scale will read? I could be up 5 pounds or down 5?

Week 10 weigh in and I am down 1.2!! For a grand total of 17.8 pounds!! This week was so busy that I didn’t eat properly; one day, I had a cookie for lunch, not cool. But I am back home and my fridge is full of healthy stuff.

Week 11

I am starting the week psyched! I just tried on my inspiration outfit, which is a sequin pencil skirt and a black top; both I bought because I loved, but they were both too small, and now they fit!!

Ok can we talk about that last statement for a minute? Why do woman buy things that don’t fit us?? We buy with the goal that we will lose weight, but we usually don’t! And those articles hang in our closet silently judging us and making us feel bad!! I bought that skirt 3 years ago!!! Although I am proud that it finally fits, I bought it 3 years ago!!! I am making a vow to myself that I will stop buying things that don’t make me feel fabulous and fit.

Back to my inspirational outfit; I am going to see Mariah Carey’s Christmas concert in November. My friends and I bought tickets in June and knowing I was ready to start my weight loss journey, I told my friend that my goal was to fit into this outfit by November.

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Ok, so, this doesn’t look fabulous laying on my bed, lol, but trust me both pieces are really nice! The top is off the shoulder, but with long sleeves.

I woke up the day before my weekly weigh in and instead of losing, I am proud to say that I found something; I found my waistline!!! I was losing hope that I would ever see her again, lol.  I am excited for tomorrow’s weigh in. I am feeling really good this week, so I will be fine whatever the scale has to say. (Like the scale just randomly spits out numbers and I have no accountability on the numbers, lol)

I am happy with week 11th  weigh in, but I’ve decided that I am not going to share my weekly numbers until I reach my goal of 30 pounds. I am going to hold back to create a bit of surprise and anticipation!! I will share if I’ve had a good week or a bad week and my struggles and victories.

Week 12

First of all, let me say that I am really proud of myself for making it to week 12!!! I feel really good, I feel lighter, spiritually, not just physically.

Work is super busy, my biggest event of the year starts next week, but I am feeling like “I got this!”. I also attended my third and final grief counseling and I think it really helped.

That being said, the only things I felt like eating this week were chocolate or sweet things! I do have one sweet treat a day, but this week, I seriously wanted to eat cookies at every meal. Not just at every meal, for the meal!!

I did resist and I am looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow morning. If all goes well, I may need a celebratory cookie!! Lol

My weigh in went well, slow and steady wins the race. I am down a size and a half-ish!!

I can’t wait to go back to Moncton and see my family and show them how I am doing. Two more weeks!!!

Bring on month 4!

muah!

Liette

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Taking It Off! Kick Off!

Taking It Off! Kick Off!

Let’s get started!

This post is my personal weight loss journey. My weight has always fluctuated and to be honest, I have never wanted to be super skinny. I like my curves and realistically, I am not made to be uber skinny and I am 100% ok with that.

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After moving to Las Vegas three years ago, I feel like I put on the freshman 10…or 15 pounds that people gain when they go away to university, but I put them on in my late forties. I played with those extra pounds for years, I gained and lost the same ten pounds.

Then in October of 2018 we found out my dad was terminally ill; for the next 8 months I used food to cope with my feelings and comfort myself, as millions of people do.

 

Now I am ready to deal with my emotions; I have been crying a lot!! But I feel that I was numb for the first month and now I am starting to thaw. So I am going to give myself permission to feel all the feelings!

I will be following Weight Watchers, I have had success with this plan before and it works with my lifestyle and I am loving their app!!

I will share monthly updates, but will post them one after another. So I am writing in real time, but will be sharing them back to back for a week; so you won’t have to wait months to see my results. As you are reading this first post, I already know how this ends…ok, I don’t know yet, but I will by the time I start posting .

I anticipate missing Sugar the most, I am truly addicted!! Wish me luck!!

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Made sure not to smile in my before shot, apparently you are supposed to look a little miserable in the before pic; pretty sure it’s a rule. Also went with the no makeup look…oh and my hair was dirty.

muah!!

Liette

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